Friday, 11 January 2013

Deep in Ditch, Drenched

I didn’t realize I have fallen! Worse I didn’t even realize I have been in this dirty ditch all this time. Yes! what I have been thinking as the bed of roses (curse the human power of imagination) was actually a dirty stinking ditch with ,what seems like, abysmal depth!- What was I thinking??
I was thinking of world where –LOYALTY, HONESTY, INTEGRITY, ETHICS, VALUES really means what is written in the dictionary, not what it has become now. Loyalty became sycophancy, Honesty is new foolishness, integrity is innocence (you will learn as you grow up) ethics and values are like dinosaurs   (interesting to read but extinct long back)
I was thinking of the world - where relationships exist in its purest form and last long only because of love in heart not mullah in bank.  Where when a sister calls her brothers it’s because she wants to, not because she wants something. When father spends on son it’s because he knows his son’s smile is priceless not because he wants the price of it back with interest! Where mother does not want the son to payback her warmth in cash and gold!
Dreamy and mesmerized by all the goodness around me, I never noticed the fall, frankly to me then it was an exciting fall... Zero gravity!! Extreme exhilaration!
I looked around again, things have changed miraculously. Truth does not exist anymore- Everything is make belief. I noticed I am one of the victims of convulsive social system. I raised my voice several times but it was drowned in the cacophony of hypocrites, trying to prove that this is a better world and there will be a better tomorrow.
There is a sense of paranoia; everyone is living on the edge, people have been betrayed so many times that they have stopped trusting their own blood! Purity in relationship has lost its luster. It’s not white anymore! Purity does not exist, everything is amalgamated every relationship is impure. I could smell the strong stench of rotten relationships here and it’s getting worse
Even God has been questioned and dethroned.  Everyone is disillusioned. Everyone is making their own rules, implementing their new laws of nature. Everyone has painted the world Grey. Individuality have been crushed freedom has been chained. It’s suffocating here!
I am tired of this place! I looked up, there I saw the real world the world that I imagined -the world as it should be. I saw hope! I staggered, trying to reach up, it is an abysmal depth, but I will try! I have nothing to collect from here I just want to elevate.
 I am just back on my foot, I can stand upright. Oh well it’s raining heavily now and its blurs my vision, but I could still see that light. It’s a long distance but I will try. It’s slippery and dangerous, but I will try. Now that I have seen hope I will try.

 I will elevate.


  1. deep on the point...
    well, Kudos.


    1. TPO You are back!!!!! yeahii on FB ,on Blogger... I of all the ppl missed u most!!

      Sort of metaphoric post... nothing unusual happened

  3. loved your writing ! not many can dissect a topic deeper to the shreds without evoking a sense of repetition . . you have succeded in that regard . . :)

  4. HI Aparna
    Thanks for visiting my blog and spending time to comment..
    By the way happened to read your post..fantastic write great, cant resist my self to add my self on your beautiful site ..great keep it visit again
    Bhavik shah

  5. Simply superb! We go with those chaos , called life, as we hope to see a light at the end of the tunnel.

  6. Hi Aparna,

    This is the world that we see around but still want to turn a blind eye and live in our own domain thinking everything is all right. Then something jolts us out of our reverie and compels to feel on similar lines. I feel one with your writings. Write more often!

  7. I had a similar experience some time back..Though the way you put up the shades of Emotional soul-searching is nice...Good work..Keep it up :)