“Thank you for being there for me – I am
blessed to know someone like you…..”
“Only if I would have find you years back my
life would have been much better…Thanks”
“ With you around I feel much more stronger
…Thank you for standing like a rock for me…”
At this point it is important to explain to
readers, who are chuckling at my baseless disclosure of a common phenomenon and
exaggerating upon it , following important points:
a)
I am not a Counselor nor a
spiritual leader neither a doctor or a lawyer
b)
I am not running an NGO, for
upliftment of society
And more importantly it’s only since last few
years, I am being given garlands of such appreciations. Every one like to be
loved & respected in the society, then why am I not happy? I am no
different from others! I am standing in front of the mirror ,its already past
midnight, I am all alone, I am all by myself, feeling bad about the guy who
told me in the evening ‘how I made him a better man’… I almost felt my
reflection smiling at me as if its saying : “What a waste of time!- go off to
bed” – I cant! not today, I frowned at my reflection, tomorrow is weekend!, so
I stood there gazing at myself (oh! I m beautiful!!)…I saw myself I am so
imperfect, so diabolic, so scheming type How can I actually make someone a better human?
When, I am not even near human myself. If humanity has 100 points I would
barely get passing marks!
My Mashlow’s pyramid is inverted:
I have attained self actualization before other basic needs like Social Stature! I know I am no God, infact I am close to devil, but yes I know that for sure and never felt godly before, may be that does make me an elevated individual. Atleast I know! Or may be I am lucky “bitterness” is what I have in me, and I speak that too, ascerbity has two effects- depression or elevation, my listeners took my harsh words sportingly (No one committed suicide, or left the job in hand) and became “better humans” instead; however if anybody is taking chances with their life in future (or after reading this) I know I will come out clean, I am born in the family of lawyers! This is what all spiritual gurus are doing…. And man they are rich!!
I went off to sleep immediately and in my
dream I saw thousands of people sitting with hands clasped, praying silently as
if the god in front is the answer to all their worries and pain. The people are
ready to give up all their asset and gold just to have a blessing from one
that’s sitting on golden throne, surrounded with “greens” and “yellows” while people
around chanted prayers. As the prayers
grew stronger and people became more anxious just to see the face of God, flame
of the lamp glowed . I could see the face of God myself!
There on Golden throne sat a goddess so
serene,
Her smile was pure her intentions clean
She never objected your yellow or green
For she can make you a man you wanted to
be
Away from all pain careless and free
And as the lamp’s flame glowed her face
I could see,
Sitting on golden throne was noone but
me!
Had my eyes wide open throughout the post. My only humble input here would be ---- We can not others' perceptions about us! Fortunately, you are on a seemingly pleasant ride. There are people who suffer from "Oh God! I cant stand her!!" from almost everyone around them :)
ReplyDeleteYou are good.